crazy...

I didn't work today but easily could have, I instead relaxed and slept in sort of and I have been rather comfy with how I spent my morning.  Now after a long tiring day out in the hot sun I have aching muscles and joints but the discomfort is worth it, I had a real blast.

I feel tired physically because it managed to get quite hot and nasty out but I was pretty sensible although I did forget sunscreen on my arms a couple times.. oh well I have had them sunburned before and I will just have to put up with it won't I.  I am actually a bit thirsty so I will just go n grab a drink n be right back for more blogging.

That's better I feel a little more refreshed and think I might have gotten a bit too dehydrated today but that really is only one person's fault ... mine, I obviously didn't drink enough earlier in the day to compensate for the draining heat.  I did ok at cricket but was given out on a bit of a dodgy call, which also happens too and the guy that did the call was a bit of an ass anyway and seems to be getting bigger.

I think I'll leave this blog there as I'm rambling and it has no real point to it now...

OUCH CRAMP... in my right foot... aww it hurts oooowwwww

HMMM big stretch....

Good morning world, it is 7am on  a warm yet sunny Saturday morning and the sun is peeking thru a gap in my curtains and happened to wake me up. I had my best night sleep for a while last night and I feel really relaxed and positive about the day ahead.  I'm currently being lazy and just laying in my bed but I really should get up and do some stuff like have breakfast but I dunno what to have as I just have too many yummy things to choose from.

I have cricket this afternoon and the team looks pretty damn good today thanks to a bit of help from the 1st team, I have to admit being Captain of the 2nd team can sometimes be a hassle but we have a policy.... It doesn't matter if you win or lose, as long as you have FUN. So far we haven't won a game but that is because we have a large volume of junior players and that is why the philosophy is to have fun as they don't need the stress of WIN, WIN, WIN.

I seriously need a shave, but since I've been working long hours and so forth I couldn't be bothered with it and I thought well I will do it on the weekend and since it's here now I guess I should look at doing it coz right now it has that horrible itch to it and I have to admit it's really annoying.  Of course after that I will have either a nice long soaking bath or a lovely warm shower, I just can't decide what at this time.  Ohhh just interrupted my typing with a big long stretch, to get my muscles etc working again, like they need prompting after the week of work I've had.

Speaking of muscles, I've been formulating a workout regimen as I feel totally fat n lazy, because I haven't really done anything much exercise wise since my accident in April.  But that is gonna change now as I think I'll keep the 5am wake ups so I can exercise in the cool once caught up with all the damn work.  It'll be different in winter of course... I think it will be 5pm exercise sessions then LOL.

As I'm typing my hears are being treated to the melodious sounds of an angelic voice which is mixed up with the strong music of a wonderful band called Paramore.  I know that Hayley is amazing, she sounds awesome and looks good and her man is so lucky to have such a sought after girl.  Personally I wish I had someone too, I kinda did but things didn't work out there for some reason and to be honest I still love her, but I know we are too far apart for anything to work at this time.  I will always care about her because she was and in many ways still is a very important part of my life as she is my most valued friend and the one person who I feel I can tell anything to.  She already knows more of my secrets than any person alive, apart from me.

I've got a heap to do but my main tasks this morning are to relax, get myself cleaned up and get ready for Cricket this afternoon... I hope to have a good day and really do hope that we have a win but if we don't that's ok too because in the big wide scheme of things winning isn't really that important, having a good fun time is.

Feeling good but different..

I've been working long hard hours and they actually have me feeling good in ways, I actually feel a lot like I did years ago when I was in the Army.  I feel tired and to be honest it is a rewarding tired, something that I haven't felt in a while really.  I've been feeling a great deal of negativity but that is because I've had a large volume of negative energy thrown my way over the last few weeks.  I was fortunate enough to be working alone this afternoon and I did a lot of thinking while I had the solitude of my thoughts.

I'm also feeling pretty good and content within myself after a few days of struggles and hassles with sleep and so forth. I have this very relaxed almost euphoric feeling that I've had only once in the last year and a half.  I know when I had it & why I had it back then but I'm not too sure why I have that feeling now.  I've got a suspicion the feeling is to do with a dream I had last night.  What I remember wasn't at all spectacular but it was comforting and very much reassuring for me.

I have even started making plans & working on other things too.... such as getting new brushes and paint etc as my creativity is again flowing thru me like a flooding river which has burst its banks and spread appreciably over the dry parched landscape.  Even my mind is thinking faster and clearer than it has in many years, I can't remember the last time I felt this lucid or my thoughts were so transparent to me.

I have a myriad of aches, pain and bruises but they simply seem to blur into the background like an out of focus photograph.  My energy levels are again lifting to older levels and I think that may be the onset of another stint of fitness as well as seeing a wide scope of tasks and jobs completed if I can correctly focus my energy, in the way a fireman focusses his water blasts at the base of the flames to extinguish the fire.

it's so darn hot...

So far I have started work early every day this week and by early I mean 6:30am people... that isn't my normal start time, normally it is 7:45am.  I finish work usually at 4:30pm but this week generally I am lucky if I am out by 4:45pm, with some days finishing at 5pm. Add onto those hours the fact the temperature each day has been 40 degrees centigrade and you get one very hot tired n cranky person.

The last day or 2 I've been rather snappy at a few people and not as tolerant as normal even when people are just joking around which is totally unusual for me really.  I love to joke around n have fun like everyone else but the heat and the fact I've been working hard and am more tired than a one legged guy after a butt kicking contest doesn't help me feel any better.

Caring about people, missing them and having other friends and family seemingly ignore you also makes life a little bit more of a challenge but I have been fighting the bad thoughts and feelings pretty well this week thanks to a little message from a very special friend who has helped me get thru the bad times a bit better than normal.

Naturally work is only one small part of the things I must organise and do, there are sports grounds to prepare... newsletters to edit and layout as well as webpages and sports administration to take care of not to forget the Fire Brigade duties of Communications Officer, all of these things have me running around like a chicken that got the chop...

Lest We Forget

They shall not grow old, as we that are left grow old.. Age shall not weary them nor the years condemn... At the going down of the sun and in the morning we shall remember them... LEST WE FORGET.

November 11 1918 saw the end of the Worlds first great conflict and this date was known as Armistice Day - as it was the official end of World War 1 and many nations around the world mark this event with Remembrance ceremonies and having served 6 years in the military I was involved in quite a few of these...