been a while....

I haven't been in here for so so long and to be honest I hadn't missed it because things were going well and I was enjoying life and living the dream... only problem is the dream became a nightmare.

I had a lovely wonderful loving girlfriend but I lost her and the reason I did is a chemical imbalance within my brain that caused me no end of grief and made her life a bit of a living hell. I never knew of this problem but now I am working hard to fix it so that I can live and love to the fullest extent.

I started treatment and instantly could feel a difference, the thing is the condition has been with me since I was a teenager and could have been the cause of a lot of my relationship issues and problems such as depression, anxiety and my constant self doubt.

I have needed friends around me the past few weeks to talk about things and to understand things better because I am finding out things I never knew and never realised...and my friends are the ones who can help me the most, I just wish all of them were able to talk to me.